The first person I have to say I thought of today was my Great Grandmother Lorraine. She passed away in 2005, I was with her, I was 20 years old. At the time of her death, I wasn't sad, she had the strongest Faith in God than anyone I ever met and would always tell us we never had to worry when she passed, that she was going where she belonged, home to the Lord. That was her legacy,a great love for God, Jesus her savior and to share his gift with her family. As I've grown older and closer to God, I realize I miss her more now and wish I could have a relationship with her now than I ever did when she was alive. I wish she was here to give me advice, study the Bible with and answer questions that I'd only trust to ask someone that knew Jesus so well. I wish then, when I was younger I had a closer relationship with her. I do feel very lucky though that I was able to have known my great grandmother for 20 years and my 2 oldest children got to know their great great grandmother for 5 and 2 years. Most people would say that's pretty remarkable because most will never get that chance.
The second one is someone I never got a chance to meet. In January of 2002, we lost a baby to miscarriage. It was such a sad thing to go through. Now having 4 children I think of the life that could have been and wonder if our little one would have been a boy or a girl,who they might have looked/been like and the love I missed out on sharing with them.I carry the memory of my second baby in my heart and know we will meet in heaven one day.
The third person is my Uncle Mike. He passed away almost 3 years ago and although we weren't close he came to me for help to get the diagnosis of what eventually was the reason he passed. During his struggle with cancer we probably spent more time with him in the 9 months before he passed than ever before. I am glad we were able to have that time, even if it was mostly sadness, im glad we were there for him.
Last and most importantly, I remember God, Jesus and the amazing sacrifice for us all. I am so thankful for Forgiveness,Hope,Joy, Grace and Peace that came with that.
Today, I hope that the memories of your loved ones give you comfort.
A funny thing my Great Grandma use to say to us was,"Give me flowers now, I don't want flowers when I am gone, I want them while I am alive".
So remember to give the people you love flowers now, love them and make lots of good memories.
Monday, May 28, 2012
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Changes
It has been quite awhile since I have blogged. I have been thinking a lot lately about the best ways to use my time since there never seems to be enough. I like the idea of blogging however it falls on the bottom of my priority list which I never get that far most days.
One big thing I have decided to try to get away from is Facebook. I find when I am bored or have a few extra minutes I tend to hit that pretty blue icon on my fancy smancy cell phone and check out whats going on in the world of many people I haven't seen since my elementary days. We all know it can be quite addicting. Although peoples lives can be quite interesting, funny, drama filled, etc, I find it strange that I know so much about people I don't REALLY know, if you know what I mean. I like reading what my family/close friends post, but I talk to them on a regular basis anyways. More than that I realize how little time their is in a day and I'd much rather take those 20minutes or so that I would otherwise be on FB, to read my bible, catch a cat nap or talk with my family. With that said I deactivated my account in hopes that I will use that time for the better and keep all the strangers lives a mystery, as they should be. I hope I can stay away, seriously, because I really do enjoy Facebook but just because you enjoy something, doesn't make it good for you.
Another change I am trying to make is spending QUALITY time with my children and not just being here. It is so easy to be present but not interact. I found that growing up and even now there was a lot of that. So instead of trying to tackle everything that needs to be done im trying to relax and play a little more. Everyday I take Gabriel outside to play and leave the chores for later. I make more simple meals so there is more time to spend. Instead of saying No to the children, that I have to do this or that, my new goal is to say YES as much as possible Instead of Mommy's having time to herself in her room, its been sure you can come in and cuddle and my time comes shortly after when they go to bed.
Having a 12 year old and a 9 year old helped me to realize how short a time our children stay small and I am embracing that fact by enjoying every moment of Dom and Gabriel being little, even Rome and Liv I keep that mindset, they seem smaller to me now then when they were younger because then I didn't realize how small they really were, now I do and in 5 more years ill look back to now and say." look how little you were"...so... that's where I've been, enjoying my babies, making the most of each moment and working on ever improving. And just so you know I love my role as a Mommy, I do, I really do.
One big thing I have decided to try to get away from is Facebook. I find when I am bored or have a few extra minutes I tend to hit that pretty blue icon on my fancy smancy cell phone and check out whats going on in the world of many people I haven't seen since my elementary days. We all know it can be quite addicting. Although peoples lives can be quite interesting, funny, drama filled, etc, I find it strange that I know so much about people I don't REALLY know, if you know what I mean. I like reading what my family/close friends post, but I talk to them on a regular basis anyways. More than that I realize how little time their is in a day and I'd much rather take those 20minutes or so that I would otherwise be on FB, to read my bible, catch a cat nap or talk with my family. With that said I deactivated my account in hopes that I will use that time for the better and keep all the strangers lives a mystery, as they should be. I hope I can stay away, seriously, because I really do enjoy Facebook but just because you enjoy something, doesn't make it good for you.
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| Gabriel <3 |
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| Watching his big brother make something with the glue gun |
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| My sweet baby |
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| Me and my girl |
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| Romeo and his buddy at the 6th grade send off party,so much fun! |
Having a 12 year old and a 9 year old helped me to realize how short a time our children stay small and I am embracing that fact by enjoying every moment of Dom and Gabriel being little, even Rome and Liv I keep that mindset, they seem smaller to me now then when they were younger because then I didn't realize how small they really were, now I do and in 5 more years ill look back to now and say." look how little you were"...so... that's where I've been, enjoying my babies, making the most of each moment and working on ever improving. And just so you know I love my role as a Mommy, I do, I really do.
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