Changes

It has been quite awhile since I have blogged. I have been thinking a lot lately about the best ways to use my time since there never seems to be enough. I like the idea of blogging however it  falls on the bottom of my priority list which I never get that far most days.

One big thing I have decided to try to get away from is Facebook. I find when I am bored or have a few extra minutes I tend to hit that pretty blue icon on my fancy smancy cell phone and check out whats going on in the world of many people I haven't seen since my elementary days. We all know it can be quite addicting. Although peoples lives can be quite interesting, funny, drama filled, etc, I find it strange that I know so much about people I don't REALLY know, if you know what I mean. I like reading what my family/close friends post, but I talk to them on a regular basis anyways. More than that I realize how little time their is in a day and I'd much rather take those 20minutes or so that I would otherwise be on FB, to read my bible, catch a cat nap or talk with my family. With that said I deactivated my account in hopes that I will use that time for the better and keep all the strangers lives a mystery, as they should be. I hope I can stay away, seriously, because I really do enjoy Facebook but just because you enjoy something, doesn't make it good for you.

Gabriel <3

Watching his big brother make something with the glue gun

My sweet baby

Me and my girl

Romeo and his buddy at the 6th grade send off party,so much fun!

Another change I am trying to make is spending QUALITY time with my children and not just being here. It is so easy to be present but not interact. I found that growing up and even now there was a lot of that. So instead of trying to tackle everything that needs to be done im trying to relax and play a little more. Everyday I take Gabriel outside to play and leave the chores for later. I make more simple meals so there is more time to spend. Instead of saying No to the children, that I have to do this or that, my new goal is to say YES as much as possible Instead of Mommy's having time to herself in her room, its been sure you can come in and cuddle and my time comes shortly after when they go to bed.

Having a 12 year old and a 9 year old helped me to realize how short a time our children stay small and I am embracing that fact by enjoying every moment of Dom and Gabriel being little, even Rome and Liv I keep that mindset, they seem smaller to me now then when they were younger because then I didn't realize how small they really were, now I do and  in 5 more years ill look back to now and say." look how little you were"...so... that's where I've been, enjoying my babies, making the most of each moment and working on ever improving. And just so you know I love my role as a Mommy, I do, I really do.

The past 7 weeks

Been thinking a lot about getting a post on here since the last but thinking and getting it done are two very different things I am learning theses days. Life with 4, specifically life with 2 little ones so close in age is busy busy busy!

To get you up to speed on what we have been doing for the past few weeks lets start from the beginning. About a week and a half after having Dominique I went in and they discovered once again I had retained placenta. I had surgery to remove it but at my post op check a week later they discovered they hadn't gotten it all. Pathology on what they did get showed placenta and muscle meaning it was a focal placenta accreta. I had this before and luckily although I did have alot of blood loss they were able to control it. They decided not to chance another surgery since they would risk putting a hole in my very thin uterus and causing some major problems so they decided to give me treatment with a chemotherapy drug in the hopes that it would dissolve whatever was left behind. I went in a few weeks later and it was still there. So they want me to go back 3 months from when I got the shot and check to see if it has dissolved.(I guess that's how long the shot stays in your system) Its not causing me any major problems except for the annoyance of still bleeding some but I'm hopeful it will dissolve because I had this treatment before and it worked.

At 2 weeks of age Dominique was still struggling with jaundice and a very low hemoglobin from the antibodies attacking his red blood cells, so our little guy had to have a blood transfusion. His hemoglobin, we found out just the other day  is finally rising so that is a huge relief to know his body is ridding the antibodies. Our little precious baby is 2 months old today and growing like a weed. His last weight was 13pds last week. I feel so proud that all that growth comes from me since breastfeeding is going amazing!

Gabriel has adjusted very well to his baby brother, kinda like he has always been here. We are just trying to teach him to be more gentle with his touch. Romeo has recently started basketball and has been really worn out but he sure is enjoying it. I am so glad he is starting to want to get involved in sports! Olivia has been decorating for the holidays and got her and Gabriel's room all festive with a tree, lights and decorations. The only problem is Gabe really likes to mess with it all!

 Prob recently got his citizenship so that was a very exciting day for him! My mom got him a cute cake. Other than that just trying to keep up with the housework and get a shower in each day. I am home more than ever now because taking two babies anywhere (especially when one is at a stage where he is mobile, yet doesn't understand much) is just way too much to handle alone. 

Gabriel playing in the snow for the first time!

 Lately my thoughts seem to be mostly about family, how I can make each day special and meaningful with my children and about being mindful about being present in the moment and enjoying it for what it is because you can never get time back that you waste. I have also been thinking about the meaning of Christmas and something we can do as a family to bring joy to others in this special season. The children and I have come up with a few ideas so I am looking forward to it. 

The gang and their cousins on halloween

Dom's footprint on his first pumpkin

 Gabriel's first time trick or treating, you should have seen him go, one of the moments that makes motherhood so special!