Thursday, February 24, 2011
I am one of the 7%
SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT.
I recieved this in an email and thought no better place to share than here.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Girls Day
Last weekend I took Romeo on a date. It was suppose to be just him and I but Gabriel ended up with us because Dad was fishing and Olivia and Grandma were having girl day. We went to the mall and got his ears pierced, had lunch and bought him a few things. He had a good time and was really thankful and sweet.
This weekend was Olivia's turn so she picked a good friend of hers to join us and our day consisted of making homemade pizzas and sundaes and going to see the Justin Bieber movie. I have to say that it was so cute to watch her as she watched the movie. I almost burst out laughing when Justin Bieber took his shirt off and she giggled so hard. To be young again...
We had a fun time though and it feels good to be really making a point to spend time with the children as individuals. The only thing that had me dragging a bit was that nausea and queasiness began yesterday and is pretty bad today, its deja vue from last year.
Gabriel of course rolled over completely yesterday when I was gone, go figure. He is just too darn cute, today he drank from a straw and it was so funny, my smart baby boy.
Tomorrow the children have the day off school, not sure what we'll do since we are getting a ton of snow again. Maybe we'll bundle the baby all up and bring him out to play in the snow for the first time, yeah that sounds like a good idea!
This weekend was Olivia's turn so she picked a good friend of hers to join us and our day consisted of making homemade pizzas and sundaes and going to see the Justin Bieber movie. I have to say that it was so cute to watch her as she watched the movie. I almost burst out laughing when Justin Bieber took his shirt off and she giggled so hard. To be young again...
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| Charlotte loved the animals |
Gabriel of course rolled over completely yesterday when I was gone, go figure. He is just too darn cute, today he drank from a straw and it was so funny, my smart baby boy.
Tomorrow the children have the day off school, not sure what we'll do since we are getting a ton of snow again. Maybe we'll bundle the baby all up and bring him out to play in the snow for the first time, yeah that sounds like a good idea!
Friday, February 18, 2011
What I want to be when I grow up
Most people when they are young, women especially, have a dream of what they want to be when they grow up. Naturally those things change many times as people grow and develop but most people end up having a pretty good idea where they are headed by the time they are in high school. Whether it be to go straight to college after graduation or to take a few years off to have fun and then go back, to go straight to a job or just slack off and party.
As a young girl there were only 2 things I could ever remember saying I wanted to be, first was a veterinarian because I loved animals so much. Secondly though I'll never forget when my aunt asked me when I must have been about 8. My response was, I want to have a baby. She asked," have a baby and get married"? No I said just have a baby. I don't know why that was my answer but it was. She was shocked and made me tell her group of friends that day what I had said. I wondered why that was wrong of me but everyone wondered why in the world as a young girl that was my dream. I of course got lectured how I should do everything "the right" way first.
After that I really never thought about what I'd like to be. I never dreamed of marriage or a house with a white pickett fence or going to college to be somebody. My life once I was old enough was going to school and taking care of my little brother while our single mother worked to support three children and on her nights off hanging out with friends to try and have somewhat of a life and outlet. All I really wanted as a child was for my mother to be home with us, to have time to spend with her, to snuggle with her, to be loved. She didn't have time for that though, not because she didn't want to but because she didn't have time.
My brother and his girlfriend said today that they aren't sure if they ever want children and I definitely respect that. Children aren't for everyone and I commend people that know that. I never really knew what I wanted or maybe I did and that's why I had my first child at 16. Or maybe I was just looking for love in all the wrong places. Maybe with present parents, I would have grown up to "be someone" instead of being a teen mom. Maybe if I didn't have a third child I would have continued with school to be a nurse, and maybe if I wasn't now pregnant with my 4th I would have gone back soon. Maybe...
Now seeing Gabriel, the result of a vasectomy reversal after we thought we were done after two and the shock of a 4th so soon, all I can think of is that this is what I was meant to be, a mother, a good mother, a present mother, a mother that never has to burden her older children with the responsibility's of her role, a mother that always has the opportunity to snuggle with my children, to put them to bed every night and to make and eat every meal with them. A mother that doesn't have to work because my husband happily does to support his children and wife, a mother whose children will never have to feel alone because I am here...gladly
So I might not have dreamed this life for myself and I might have been trying to please everyone else by somehow trying to become something better than what I am. But I realized something. This is who I grew up to be, not by accident but because God knew I needed the love a family, a whole family. This is who I am and it fits me well, I never regret it nor would change it nor do I care what anyone thinks. It may not be your idea of success but it is mine and I can be just as proud of my role as if I had graduated with a college degree. Maybe in the future I will be a nurse, someday when my children are grown and no longer need me.
Right now though I realize, this is the best job I could be doing and I am thankful that I am able to be here for every boring board game, every meltdown and sibling fight, every explosive, up the back poopy diaper, every goodnight mommy, your the best. Yeah this is what I wanted to be when I grew up, I finally know for sure (:
As a young girl there were only 2 things I could ever remember saying I wanted to be, first was a veterinarian because I loved animals so much. Secondly though I'll never forget when my aunt asked me when I must have been about 8. My response was, I want to have a baby. She asked," have a baby and get married"? No I said just have a baby. I don't know why that was my answer but it was. She was shocked and made me tell her group of friends that day what I had said. I wondered why that was wrong of me but everyone wondered why in the world as a young girl that was my dream. I of course got lectured how I should do everything "the right" way first.
After that I really never thought about what I'd like to be. I never dreamed of marriage or a house with a white pickett fence or going to college to be somebody. My life once I was old enough was going to school and taking care of my little brother while our single mother worked to support three children and on her nights off hanging out with friends to try and have somewhat of a life and outlet. All I really wanted as a child was for my mother to be home with us, to have time to spend with her, to snuggle with her, to be loved. She didn't have time for that though, not because she didn't want to but because she didn't have time.
My brother and his girlfriend said today that they aren't sure if they ever want children and I definitely respect that. Children aren't for everyone and I commend people that know that. I never really knew what I wanted or maybe I did and that's why I had my first child at 16. Or maybe I was just looking for love in all the wrong places. Maybe with present parents, I would have grown up to "be someone" instead of being a teen mom. Maybe if I didn't have a third child I would have continued with school to be a nurse, and maybe if I wasn't now pregnant with my 4th I would have gone back soon. Maybe...
Now seeing Gabriel, the result of a vasectomy reversal after we thought we were done after two and the shock of a 4th so soon, all I can think of is that this is what I was meant to be, a mother, a good mother, a present mother, a mother that never has to burden her older children with the responsibility's of her role, a mother that always has the opportunity to snuggle with my children, to put them to bed every night and to make and eat every meal with them. A mother that doesn't have to work because my husband happily does to support his children and wife, a mother whose children will never have to feel alone because I am here...gladly
So I might not have dreamed this life for myself and I might have been trying to please everyone else by somehow trying to become something better than what I am. But I realized something. This is who I grew up to be, not by accident but because God knew I needed the love a family, a whole family. This is who I am and it fits me well, I never regret it nor would change it nor do I care what anyone thinks. It may not be your idea of success but it is mine and I can be just as proud of my role as if I had graduated with a college degree. Maybe in the future I will be a nurse, someday when my children are grown and no longer need me.
Right now though I realize, this is the best job I could be doing and I am thankful that I am able to be here for every boring board game, every meltdown and sibling fight, every explosive, up the back poopy diaper, every goodnight mommy, your the best. Yeah this is what I wanted to be when I grew up, I finally know for sure (:
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Recording Memories
When I go through and look at old pictures and things I have saved that the children have made in the past, it just melts my heart. I love having those things to reminisce on the past. Like when Olivia and her cousin Naomi actually counted how many licks it took to get to the center of a tootsie pop and tallied it on paper, definitely a keepsake (716 was their findings, lol). Or that cute picture of Romeo on his first day of school when I thought he was so big, but looking back he was so little.
When Romeo was born, I received a baby book and of course was all into it for awhile, but then, like most people, I fell off on doing it and then you begin to forget the dates and so on and it gets tucked away uncompleted.
For awhile I have been wanting to make memory books for the children and I have been doing a pretty good job keeping track of all Gabe's milestones. So yesterday I ordered a bunch of things online that I need to start creating memory books for each of them. I also ordered a book called The belly book to record my pregnancy this time around. I had really wanted to do that with Gabriel but never did. I am really excited to receive all my goodies, hopefully by next week.
Also I got results from my bloodwork and things are looking pretty good. Have to have more done tomorrow and then another ultrasound next week. So far so good. I'll keep you posted.
When Romeo was born, I received a baby book and of course was all into it for awhile, but then, like most people, I fell off on doing it and then you begin to forget the dates and so on and it gets tucked away uncompleted.
For awhile I have been wanting to make memory books for the children and I have been doing a pretty good job keeping track of all Gabe's milestones. So yesterday I ordered a bunch of things online that I need to start creating memory books for each of them. I also ordered a book called The belly book to record my pregnancy this time around. I had really wanted to do that with Gabriel but never did. I am really excited to receive all my goodies, hopefully by next week.
Also I got results from my bloodwork and things are looking pretty good. Have to have more done tomorrow and then another ultrasound next week. So far so good. I'll keep you posted.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Baby #4?!
My post today was going to be about Valentine's day and what we as women REALLY want, but I decided to share our news instead. To our surprise we just found out we are expecting again. I can't believe how soon this is happening, we really never expected this and weren't sure if we would even have anymore children, but surprise, after 4 positive home pregnancy tests and a trip to the doctor it was confirmed.
There are some concerns on if the baby is in the tube since on ultrasound they had a hard time pinpointing baby's location . If that is the case the pregnancy won't be viable, but they are also saying everything might be ok it may just be that I am so early that its just hard to see and everything will be fine. So right now we are waiting for news from bloodwork and we have to have another ultrasound to look again later this week. I am just praying that everything will be ok , I know it will be because whats meant to be will be and it's in God's hands, the best place it could be.
Right now I am just living for today and not worrying about anything. I have my 4 beautiful Valentines and am enjoying each moment with them. I hope you are doing the same. Happy Valentine's Day (:
There are some concerns on if the baby is in the tube since on ultrasound they had a hard time pinpointing baby's location . If that is the case the pregnancy won't be viable, but they are also saying everything might be ok it may just be that I am so early that its just hard to see and everything will be fine. So right now we are waiting for news from bloodwork and we have to have another ultrasound to look again later this week. I am just praying that everything will be ok , I know it will be because whats meant to be will be and it's in God's hands, the best place it could be.
Right now I am just living for today and not worrying about anything. I have my 4 beautiful Valentines and am enjoying each moment with them. I hope you are doing the same. Happy Valentine's Day (:
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